The muse to my productivity, hell 13 hours today complete the work I started the day before yesterday -- it's like being at the zoo ! Is it a wonder I may be awake till dawn to complete my endeavours?
And of issues they wish... To release me from my chains only so long as to shackle me anew to another post with stronger bindings. An effort I resist, if I'm made to suffer I will not sacrifice my entirety that others may lounge. It's of my opinion that if you fail to plan a head, you best be prepared to weep the whirlwind that shall follow...
My mother got a torn stuck in her foot that was tracked in, do I hesitate to help? No, instead I do what I can.. Including tracking down the teasers. I'm not a cruel person by the soul, although I have more then a few brutal bones... The only time I aim to hurt others with my words is when I know from [to much] trial and error that it is all they will understand, or worse all that will keep them from striking at my spirit further.
When there's trouble, I run, whether I think aid is deserved or not. But I will only go so far.. While I might pull a thorn, I'm not about to go as far as mental seppuku over her lack of planning.
I will not have my future bared from me until I am unable to pursue it further, I struggle enough to reach it now. I seek the opposite path then the one they bid me to take. The one that leads me to a chance, a chance to see my hopes realized, myself validated. To some day walk a free man among my peers with my head held high, that only GOD may choose for me and no other without my consent.
There is a poem that I came across in my web travels awhile back. I think it explains things all to well as I feel them.
Without consideration, without pity, without shame
they have built great and high walls around me.
And now I sit here and despair.
I think of nothing else: this fate gnaws at my mind;
for I had many things to do outside.
Ah why did I not pay attention when they were building the walls.
But I never heard any noise or sound of builders.
Imperceptibly they shut me from the outside world.
--Constantine P. Cavafy (1896)
In retrospect those words should be required reading in American Schools much like a few others are already. Hmm, what was it that dear Mr Jefferson helped to pen?
"that all men are created equal, that they are endowed by their Creator with certain unalienable Rights, that among these are Life, Liberty and the pursuit of Happiness."
About the only right I have freedom to exercise here is my right to life, my right to choose and I will not relinquish it.
My soul belongs to the LORD, to no one else.