After much internal debate, I've made a string of decisions that may effect the rest of my life. Something private now lays at the foot of the cross, let it be done as HE has had it written. When the time comes, I will leave this world as I came into it, free.
I'm beginning work on the next phase of cracking the problems that stand in my way, as one legendary hacker once put it, "When in doubt, use brute force". There are only two problems integral to moving forward, and I must advance or be this place will destroy me. I have no hate or love to drive me anymore, only an iron will. If I have to hack code until my brains fall out, I am moving ahead with this: it really is as simple as that. Life has left me no stranger to running at a 150% of normal, I've already spent, what? The last 5 or 6 years of my existence like this? Last night proved a point, this morning charted a path.
Today is the first day, in the next chapter of my life.