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hmmm, [a job posting]
is that real !?
I wonder, lol
it coulb be… interesting for the least
some of the job postings are interesting on thedailywtf, but I’ll never get that lucky lol
why ? 🙂
you never know what awaits you
let me put it this way, if only 1 in every 1000 people got shit on by a pidgin, I’d probably be shit on 2ce lol

Sometimes I just crack myself up xD

I don’t know if the job listed I was looking at would fit me, or vice versa. But man, it would actually be nice to get hired on merit. Very few places that I’ve seen, will even give you the time of day without a stack of prerequisite (and expensive) papers :.

Sigh.

It seems, whenever I try to get some sleep during my ‘down’ hours, there is always something or someone to jar me awake… By the time I’m able to get back to sleep again, my brain is usually to “online” with being awake and thinking again, rather then being obediant to the rest of good sense that demands going back to sleep. If I actually do get back to sleep, I always end up with even less work done, and little time left to myself :

How many freaking years, do I have to go with a minimal of sleep….

Oh that felt so damn good, it should be a crime. I got to the point, you take a rest or else. So I powered down, laid down to watch some of the Simpsons before dinner; but no luck on a nap. After dinner, I think I managed to get nearly an hours sleep; but as usual no one will let me fscking sleep!!! So after drifting/waddling through the misc crap that had to get done, I put on the Simpsons where I left off, and crashed. I think I managed to get through the rest of the episode (~20min) before dropping off to a sound sleep.

A freaking bomb could’ve gone off, and I wouldn’t have noticed lol. Dreamt of maybe, woken up not a flubbin’ chance man.

That was maybe 2 hours ago, short… but very greatly appreicated lol. Now I’ll probably be up to six o’clock in the morning, working on some projects until I pass the frick out again :

Braintrace:
 mcp->proc:           function call returned EXCEPTNOTCAUGHT
 vigrep{data}:        focus allocation error; unable to focus!
 0xDEEDBEEF:          unaligned neural access; errno = EIAMNOTAMACHINE
 unhandled exception: ExhaustionError!!!
 
Emergency power down:   dispatching the interrupt to address 0xFEE1BAD
 0xFEE1BAD:           eval{ crash->to_bed->sleep or exec{0xFEE1DEAD} }

I /almost/ got to get some sleep…. but my brother called and spoiled my chances for a nap :-(. If he still has problems with setting up his router Friday, call #3 8=).

sigh

my family so often reminds me, that I’m virtually the only one of my kind out here…

Hmm, I never knew Albert Einstein had a sense of humour before.

(00:54:33) xspidey01x: Hmm, should I dare even play a round at any of their tests for the sake of curiosity? lol

What do your responses tell us?

Although your scores were generally quite good, you scored well outside the normal range in at least one category. This suggests that you should probably consult with a mental health professional for further testing or treatment. There is most certainly a professional out there who can help improve the symptoms you are experiencing.

The following are the areas of concern detected by the screening:

* Your responses indicated that your relationships are at least in some way dysfunctional, and may be causing problems in your life.

The test also detected symptoms of one or more disorders that did not meet all the criteria, but that may still merit treatment.

The following are the areas of concern detected by the screening:

* You have experienced symptoms of a major depressive episode, but not enough to qualify as a full-blown episode, or as major depressive disorder.
* Although you meet the criteria for the frequency of symptoms, your symptoms do not appear to be severe enough to meet the criteria for Major Depressive Disorder.
* You have experienced symptoms of a manic episode.
* You experience some symptoms of Simple Phobia.
* You appear to have some obsessive thoughts.
* You display some symptoms of Obsessive Compulsive Disorder, but you do not appear to meet the full criteria for the disorder.
* You appear to suffer from some symptoms of Borderline Personality disorder.

Nothing I didn’t already know <_<

Almost no sleep, and more then a bit of annoyance to start off the day… Gotta love family, eh? SO nice to only be considered, when it is /as good as/ a ploy for getting cooperation with their own endeavours (shove off!). Managed to have a good lunch, better then most meals of late; I haven’t been eating that much. Really, about all I’ve been eating much of is a Special K cereal with berries; I gave up most junk foods last year, lol.

Managed to get several rounds on SWAT 4 today, good to see that I am still limber ;). From recent ops, I think it is about time I release my personal skin; the no armour version is technically a bug, but I actually like how it came out hehe. Also found out about a few tanks I never heard of before: the Panzer VIII “Maus”, Landkreuzer P. 1000 Ratte, and Landkreuzer P. 1500 Monster. Looking over the docs, ffs – like a navy destroyer with tank threads kind of big! I wonder if even modern day technology, could get a beast the size of the Ratte moving across a battle field for more then 10 minutes and a few metre lol. I’ve also heard that a newer MS Gundam series is running on Sci-Fi, note to self – check further.

Really, it’s been a very boring and uneventful day. I’ve also gotten absolutly nothing done…….. *sigh*

Hmm, it has most certainly been a long day. My mind has been focused on issues, both of a very pleasent and unpleasent nature most of the night, not even coding has provided much distraction from the rest of my life. Hmm, at this point, I think I am sick of my own thoughts. It’s only 0830Z (0330R (local)), but I may as well hit the hay. There is nothing that I can get done, that I actually feel like doing, or am capable of doing at this point. I wonder, what was the last time I actually had some peace in my life? Has it really been that long? Probably has, my friends would know it better then I would.. (f*** it) it really has been a long time. I’m not sure if I honestly remember what the word means anymore, I so rarely get any with the way things are these days lol. It’s 16 degrees out, but I think I would rather march in the cool air, then sit idle tonight. I never seem to sleep that well anymore, for at least a ~decade I guess. but I know, sleep soon, or there will be sunlight through the blinds before I doze off. Already been there once, not really in any mood to repeat that incident.

Oh, how I wish I could get out of here…. even if for just a little while.