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a useful link, read again later: http://users.softlab.ntua.gr/~ttsiod/Offline-rsync.html

sigh, woke up a bit early compared to normal, and still about an hour left until it is time to leave for work :-/

It’s starting to get around that time, when I know it’s time to go to bed… I don’t feel like going to bed, because I know it’ll be a while before I fall asleep, and just a bother period. Even worse, there’s nothing left to do that I can get done without being up all night, and I’m to tired for that.

It’s some what alarming for me, that I really haven’t been writing much code this past week; I’m usually happy when writing lots of code or trying to evade misery for a spell. Either way, it usually works out more positively.

Projects of current interest, namely are furthering the development of my command line interpreter (shell) and experiementing with OGRE. There are also several projects on the fore and back burners (comparatively), but these two are the most interesting right now. And I’m to tired to code right now :'(.

I’m not fairing the nights very well lately, things are getting worse in my opinion. Days, eh; hard to tell sometimes. I really need a very long rest, with nothing to trouble me, but the odds of seeing that, oh… are probably closer to the odds of Earth getting slammed by a lethal-sized asteroid in my life time. For some strange and sick reason, an old expression comes to mind, and I spit on it. There just seems to be no relent, from the way things are here; and I struggle to find logic in it. Also coming to mind, is a very old form of torture: have a man dig a hole, them fill it back up, repeating it endlessly.

Hmm, I’ll never understand how I can write a journal entry, and see as I type: in my mind little wikipedia ^[1] like references to memories in my brain :-/. Maybe I just spend to damn much around computers…

time to crash to pillow, be it for better or worse.

When we got to work last Wednesday, the person we work for wanted Ma to take some clohs home and iron them; this time ma decided to use their iron because it is supposed to work much better.

As such, I was ordered to put the iron in the basket in a way that it wouldn’t leak over the cloths; easy enough, although what kind of asshole wouldn’t drain the thing first 8=).

Ma has left it sitting there until today, Tuesday.

Guess what, the iron leaked all over the cloths ^_^.

In response to her trying to pawn the blame off on me, I told her that no one told her to leave the damn iron in there the whole time.

and her technical incompetent still continues to annoy me. I don’t have a problem with people that don’t know better per say, but I do dislike *leeches and assholes*.

Ah, tonight hasn’t been to bad; there’s actually been some good stuff on TV, including one of my favourite movies—The Freshman. While it is far from a blockbuster, there’s just something so cool about their scheme xD. I almost *never* get to enjoy time off, and work begins again tomorrow… so yeah, I think I can take one night to TV for a change.

I’d start coding but I know if I do, it will be closer to 0400 local by the time I go to bed, and tomorrow is likely to drive me nutty enough as is!

One thing has me concerned, earily today when i took the dogs out for a walk, I had the desktop up; by the time we got back, the P.O.S. made a crash landing. For me, the box was pretty much at “idle”, just a music stream and a few IM programs running. I’m beginning to worry about the hardware integrity of the machine as well as the possibilities the drivers are just a pile of steaming shit lol. It’s like, OpenBSD box… runs until the power goes out; FreeBSD laptop… runs practically until I forget she’s on battery for a change >_>. Compare to the Windows box, which probably has more freaking BSODs then any box I have ever owned. Maybe if I had been able to go the custom route, it wouldn’t be such a pain… blasted pre-build has been a torn in my side almost since day 0.

With most of my current coding revolving around C++, and needing something more powerful then my laptops Sempron, I’ve been doing a lot with the desktop lately; it has my only serious prerequisite for coding — a decent build of Vi IMproved installed. MSVC is also a decent enough C++ compiler, as is g++ from the GNU Compiler Collection. So I reckon with all of the time spent compiling code, the hardware is under twice as much stress as normal. Not that it should make much difference, since Dixie has survived much worse and usually constant stress without so much as a burp lol.

Hardware failure has always been my one worry, since it’s more costly then data; good thing I back things up hehe.

I’ve been in a fairly bad mood most of the day :. Was dreaming that I was applying for a job at the company my brother works (a large supermarket chain) and he was driving me out of my freaking skull – until I walked out, got on a plane, and parachuted into the lake; lol. After waking up and falling back asleep, I was dreaming about testing the game project I’ve been coding on the past 2 weeks or so.

Kind of strange in a way, since I’ve always maintained if I ended up in the same line of business I would seek employment at a competing company (:P), was recently mentioning skydiving with a friend, and apparently…. have been unable to get any work done on my game all day!!!!!

I ***hate*** days when it is impossible to get anything done!!!

One of our clients was out of town for a few days, so we had to watch their dog over here; he just went home tonight. After ~6 hours of C++ this afternoon, I was kind of glad to be shifting out to a lit’ work.

Came home to a long hot shower and a close shave; threw everything in the wash and plopped down back in front of the computer lol. One nice thing about a C++ compiler, it doesn’t care if your favourite t-shirt probably has more holes in it then a slice of swiss cheese :-P.

I’ve been working on a file system library and a command console for my present project; comparing the Windows and POSIX APIs for file system operations, I’m in the mood to paste a comparison later… haha. Present prioriteres are mapping data into both the source and release trees, hooking up the game console, and maturing the file system interface. Really the prototype will have a few quake like qualities in that regard, but that is only because ID Tech engines kick ass hehe. What I really would like is to load data out of ZIP archives and use a mixture of XML and Python script to extend things. We’ll see where the future goes.

Been playing a little bit of raven shield, set to some hard rock by way of www.pandora.com it makes a nice mixture. I’m still in a really pissy mood, think I might take up some OpenArena or something to pass the time for a bit more…

I’m so tired of this place.

I’m really not in a good mood right now. Tired and pissed off make for a piss poor pair. It just seems the more I’m here, the worse I feel; the more I know that something is missing from my world. Been fairly busy of late, mostly keeping myself busy, less time to think. It’s like just about anything that will fill space for a little while; rather then thinking about other issues. I’m also not looking forward to this coming week and such, because I know for what family has planned, is only likely to make me feel miserable in the long run. It’s been 21 years on earth, and I just know… being around family is usually a painful affair.

Plans as part of Operation Redeemer are more or less on schedule but things just are not going fast enough in the right directions to suit my needs; lately I feel like I’m just passing time again, but for different reasons. I draw breath, but what makes me move?