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I started at ~1230, it’s now ~1630 and I’ve gotton shit done…

You’ve just got to love my family….

Ready to scream

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The official rage list…

  • I’m f***ing tired of not being able to get stuff done in the afternoon.
  • I’m f***ing tired of being driven out of my skull.
  • I’m f***ing tired of having my train of thought derailed.
  • I’m f***ing tired of of being annoyed.
  • I’m f***ing tired of being interrupted.
  • I’m f***ing tired of not being able to concentrate.
  • I’m f***ing tired of being antagonised by computer-illiterate scum.
  • I’m f***ing tired of being barked, screeched, and shouted at.
  • I’m f***ing tired of having to live like this.
  • I’m f***ing tired of being tortured whenever I try to learn some thing.
  • I’m f***ing tired of having to stay up till 4am or later.
  • I’m f***ing tired of not being able to do f***ing any thing other wise.
  • I’m f***ing tired of watching my home work pile up.
  • I’m f***ing tired of not being able to rest when I’m *not* trying to do some f***ing thing.
  • I’m f***ing tired of being denied a chance to follow my goals.
  • I’m f***ing tired of this.

and I’m about ready to explode !!!

This mother f***ing rat ass sucking hell hole is pushing the limit. I’ve got over 4,500 pages to read — and I’m going to start knocking the damn walls down if I have to, but I am FINISHING THESE f***ing BOOKS.

There is no where else to go to read, study, nap, or any damn other thing. And my family makes it very hard to do any of those.

That means either this house learns to live with my work load or face the consequences. I should fuk’n start evicting people by force…. Let them enjoy freezing their ass off outside for a few hours.. While I get things *DONE* for a change.

Why, just why can’t I just once let myself be as cruel and vindictive as the rest… Instead of suffering aggravation after one another and hating that I feel like hating back…

Is it to much to ask to sit down and read a damn blasted book before I have to get back to work? I think not !!!!!!!!!!!!

I need a frigging vacation….. big time

Library takedown

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The new reading list:

Maximum Security: A Hacker’s Guide to Protecting Your Internet Site and Network — I wonder what the last chapter I read was last time I checked it out hehe.

Upgrading and Repairing Servers — I’d love to learn more and it’s got some stuff that interests me a lot on the bare hardware-level.

Learning Java, Second Edition — Useful because the book I own on Java was published ~1996.

The TCP/IP Guide: A Comprehensive, Illustrated Internet Protocols Reference — Probably will put me to sleep but is useful to have on hand, should I have time to read it.

Linux® Programming Bible — Old (2000’ish I think) but worth a thumb through in case I learn any thing I missed from it. I think it even includes a basic unix shell in the code listing, which is nice because one of my projects was trying to implement a bare bones shell in ruby.

Not counting indexes, glossaries, or appendixes (one of which as A-D I think): There are 4746 pages in all !

Counting every books last page with a pg# on it, we have 5381 pages total !!!

Borg wars?

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Far be it from me not to admit I have some crazy dreams… laugh out loud.

I dreamed that I was aboard a Sovereign class starship on escort duty in the middle of a bitter United Federation of Planets Vs Borg war.

Surrounded by a swarm of smaller borg scout-strike craft and most of the convoy assimilated. The Soverign class ship tried fighting off the swarm but it didn’t do any good, just to many ships to keep remodulating our weapons to.

So the Captain ordered all power transfered from weapons to what was left of our forward shield grid…

And we chased down and rammed every last one of those little bastards head on at warp speed!

Using the reinforced frontal shields and the navigational deflector to take the brunt of the damage and the Structural Itegerty Field (SIF) to keep us in one piece… Crazist dang thing I’ve ever seen but it worked great haha! The littler ships were just to much smaller then us, that they couldn’t hold up to the force of impact of such a massive force 😉

The fictional-fact that most of what were left of the ships shield emitters would’ve been to damaged by heat build up beyond use if we tried that after duking it out in combat so hard… Is probably irrelivent as far as dreams go lol but still.

Hmm, maybe I should’ve skept reading star trek tech-manuals when I was little hehe.

Writer’s Block: Current Favorites

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Tell us your current favorite: book, movie, CD, video game.

Live Jorunal Writer’s Block

Book:
The Thrawn Trilogy by Timothy Zahn, Mara Jade is definitely my favorite charactor in Star Wars and watching, uhh reading. The Thrawn Trilogy and Duology, my favorite parts are the relationship between Luke Skywalker and Mara Jade. Grand Admiral Thrawn is also one of a good example of a decent commander, especially for an imperial…
Movie:

I’d say I probably like to many movies to be able to honestly nail it on any specific one now. I generally enjoy Comedy, Science Fiction, and Action movies as well as Classics.
CD:

N/A, haven’t boughten any CD’s in ages, I don’t really follow music… If I had money odds are it would go for a mixture of Country, Rock & Roll, and Metal….
Video Game:

SWAT3, the best of the best. I’ve yet to meet a better Tactical FPS Game then SWAT3. The net code blows but the game play is just freaking awesome

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“Betty Davis advised to know who your friends are and also know your enemies. When asked how one can identify ones enemies she said “anyone who interferes with your work”

I’m beginning to agree…

FreeBSD + Java?

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How easy is it…

The JDK and JRE packages on the FreeBSD Foundation require the following to install and run correctly:

inputproto-1.4.2.1, javavmwrapper-2.3, kbproto-1.0.3, libICE-1.0.4,1, libSM-1.0.3,1, libX11-1.1.3,1, libXau-1.0.3_2, libXdmcp-1.0.2, libXext-1.0.3,1, libXi-1.1.3,1, libXp-1.0.0,1, libXt-1.0.5, libXtst-1.0.3, pkg-config-0.22, printproto-1.0.3, recordproto-1.13.2, xextproto-7.0.2, xproto-7.0.10_1, xtrans-1.0.4

If you run a Desktop based system with Xorg installed most of these are probably already there, on my laptop which has KDE 3.5.7 for the GUI all I had to do was install one package first:

pkg_add -r javavmwrapper

If you don’t have a required package it will tell you what you need to install when you try to pkg_add Java. Most probably can be pkg_add -r’d unless you want to the ports.

I then went over to the FreeBSD Foundation website to download Java

If you only want to run Java programs, you will need the JRE (Java Runetime Environment) but if you wish to develop Java programs you’ll require the JDK (Java Development Kit).

The packages currently are for FreeBSD 5.5/i386 and FreeBSD 6.1/i386 and amd64. Just download the one that matches your FreeBSD major branch and CPU Architecture. I fetched both JRE and JDK for FreeBSD 6.1/i386 which is about a 70MB download combined, my Laptop runs PC-BSD v1.4 so the underlaying system is FreeBSD 6.2-Stable, no problems so far.

You need to accept the license agreement to download and when you pkg_add, just scroll to the bottom and type ‘yes’ and press enter, you can probably use the shift+g command to jump to the bottom of the license.

I think because of the terms that the JRE/JDK were licensed for distro we’ve got to live with the manual download. Once you’ve got your packages downloaded, just do a :

pkg_add ./diablo-jdk-freebsd6.i386.1.5.0.07.01.tbz

of course replacing ./ with the path (if necessary) and the filename with the proper one. Tip: If you don’t want to typo it, use tab completion in your shell. I usually just download things to /tmp and cd over to it. You also need to be root in order to run pkg_add with any possibility of success. Depending on ones shell a ‘rehash’ command might also be needed before the programs can be found in the command prompt.

which tells me that java and javac are working, and it passed the test of compiling a small test program and running it.

Vista gone loco, connection limits!

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Windows Vista tcpip.sys Connection Limit Patch for Event ID 4226

I have officially lost any respect or regard for Microsoft Windows Vista and I’ve yet to have a chance to test the bloody thing.

My Windows XP machine has SP2 installed by the connection limit is returned to a extremely high level. Because I was getting some crap with being the only box to drop off the ‘net connection, making that change had a noticable impovement for me. The difference between VISA versions shows it all to true, it’s about the money.

Instead of doing some thing about it, they make a buck off it. What ever happened to passion ruling OS development? Not the dollar…..

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I’m exausted…. Tonights a night I feel like just sleeping, but I know then nothing would ever get done…. Thats how I end up staying up til around 0400 and having to be to work by 1000… After enough years it takes it’s toll I guess.

I’ve broken out my old Java source book to see if it might be able to use it for a SAS project I’m working on.. I was figured I would just use Ruby and place the classified parts into a C Program. I can make the C program make very darn sure that it is “The” authorized ruby script that it passes information to. But then I remembered that there are ways of out witting that with Ruby. And just counting on end-users lack of technical exbertise would kinda be stupid, because other wise they could just have the info… Since my prefered way of doing it in C/C++ would require replacing the Ruby prototype with a C++/QT4 program, that means it would have to be under the GPL, a license I don’t like but one I can live with (ISC and X/MIT licenses are more my style). I was planning on making as much of the code available as possible any way. But using a compiled language would just make it much safer and more effective, if I didn’t need a program to call it and try and make it ‘secure’ enough, much easier to just do it all in one spot… And I think Java would make it easier b/c I’m used to C/C++ and probably know Java syntax better then C++, even if I’m about 9 years out dated in Java haha!

Hey….. if only Windows built in ftp client was worth a flying fuck… hehe