Month: January 2009

SLEEP !!! Precious sleep !!!

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Oh that felt so damn good, it should be a crime. I got to the point, you take a rest or else. So I powered down, laid down to watch some of the Simpsons before dinner; but no luck on a nap. After dinner, I think I managed to get nearly an hours sleep; but as usual no one will let me fscking sleep!!! So after drifting/waddling through the misc crap that had to get done, I put on the Simpsons where I left off, and crashed. I think I managed to get through the rest of the episode (~20min) before dropping off to a sound sleep.

A freaking bomb could’ve gone off, and I wouldn’t have noticed lol. Dreamt of maybe, woken up not a flubbin’ chance man.

That was maybe 2 hours ago, short… but very greatly appreicated lol. Now I’ll probably be up to six o’clock in the morning, working on some projects until I pass the frick out again :

sleep deprivation

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Braintrace:
 mcp->proc:           function call returned EXCEPTNOTCAUGHT
 vigrep{data}:        focus allocation error; unable to focus!
 0xDEEDBEEF:          unaligned neural access; errno = EIAMNOTAMACHINE
 unhandled exception: ExhaustionError!!!
 
Emergency power down:   dispatching the interrupt to address 0xFEE1BAD
 0xFEE1BAD:           eval{ crash->to_bed->sleep or exec{0xFEE1DEAD} }

This figures

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When [John] Carmack was on vacation with his wife, he ended up playing some games on her cellphone, and he realized that the games weren’t any good. He then decided he was going to make a good mobile game. When he got back from his vacation he revealed that he had started working on Doom RPG.

Ok, maybe it is possible to make a decent video game on a cell phone, haha! If anyone could…. 🙂

*sigh*

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I /almost/ got to get some sleep…. but my brother called and spoiled my chances for a nap :-(. If he still has problems with setting up his router Friday, call #3 8=).

sigh

my family so often reminds me, that I’m virtually the only one of my kind out here…

Ok… I need to sit down

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because I’m sorry to say, I’ve actually seen horse shit like this: http://thedailywtf.com/Articles/Mentors,_the_Freshmaker.aspx

lol. I still remember one day finding some even worse shit… Found some code (looked like a lazy patch someone did to tweak it) that did nothing but a series of database lookups, set iterations, and I/O calls (without error checking) just to figure out how to print a non breaking space haha. That’s when I threw up my hands and said, FUCK IT I’m done reading this thing looooooooool.

Maybe I really should get a life again >_<

Do you need theropy?

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(00:54:33) xspidey01x: Hmm, should I dare even play a round at any of their tests for the sake of curiosity? lol

What do your responses tell us?

Although your scores were generally quite good, you scored well outside the normal range in at least one category. This suggests that you should probably consult with a mental health professional for further testing or treatment. There is most certainly a professional out there who can help improve the symptoms you are experiencing.

The following are the areas of concern detected by the screening:

* Your responses indicated that your relationships are at least in some way dysfunctional, and may be causing problems in your life.

The test also detected symptoms of one or more disorders that did not meet all the criteria, but that may still merit treatment.

The following are the areas of concern detected by the screening:

* You have experienced symptoms of a major depressive episode, but not enough to qualify as a full-blown episode, or as major depressive disorder.
* Although you meet the criteria for the frequency of symptoms, your symptoms do not appear to be severe enough to meet the criteria for Major Depressive Disorder.
* You have experienced symptoms of a manic episode.
* You experience some symptoms of Simple Phobia.
* You appear to have some obsessive thoughts.
* You display some symptoms of Obsessive Compulsive Disorder, but you do not appear to meet the full criteria for the disorder.
* You appear to suffer from some symptoms of Borderline Personality disorder.

Nothing I didn’t already know <_<

A decent day….

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Not a bad day, spent most of my time in Training Grounds #1. I turned off the aiming reticle again, so my accuracy is getting back up to snuff in RvS. Used to have it off all the time, but after getting back into SWAT 4, I turned it back on in RvS, for the consistency – since SWAT 4 won’t let me turn off the aiming reticle there in Multiplayer mode :-(. Really, I like playing without the reticle on screen; much more realistic. It also frees me up to just aim and fire insticively, rather then using the red micro-dot in the centre, as my point of refence. Instead, I see target, I hit target ;-). That’s basically the way I was trained, keep moving, go full auto, fire off short controlled bursts of 2~3 rounds and keep’em firing until the S.O.B. goes down for good. With the way things are going these days, I think the next generation of Recruits is gonna have it much easier then us lot did :. But oh well, I’m just an old fart at heart lol.

Got to enjoy some range work also, taking shorts at near my maximum effective range on DF_Compound, limbering up the ol’CQB and virtual CS-imunity on Box_Storage, limping through the Playground on razor-eyes detail <_<, and commanding a stealth element on Private Airport and MP Training; finishing out witha little more 'mixed' ops hehe.
No idea who set up the line up for this afternoon, but I really enjoyed listening to the Radio today lol. This one song in particular is really starting to grow on me, and a friend introduced me to an interesting band today… hehe.

Sigh, it’s back to work on Tuesday 🙁

Annoyance with half assed work

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I will never understand why so many people seem to do so much insecure $h|+ with temporary files…. for the love of petes sister, if the system provides secure alterntiives — use them for cryoing out !)%(!%)!(%Y)!ing loud. Is it really that hard? It’s not like you have to implement the damn wheel everwhere…. And if osme one is going to reimplement the damn wheel — make it a better one, not even worse one shaped like a triangle!!!

Some times… people really, really, really annoy me with what they do….