Raged Spiders

Well, the live op was a master scaled disaster.

The planning started in March, the Live Op was to be marvelous. The map was huge, 5 levels worth and three huge buildings plus larger areas connecting them. Plus a bell tower with a sniper. Two hostages and a Bomb !

The scenario was pretty simple, HRH Prince Charles of Wales got kidnapped and was tracked down. At the direction of MI5, Armed Police kicked in the door on a house where the Residents were suspected of being terrorists. After a heck of a fight, they link up with lots of others and take over U.W.A. A big university in south Wales. Two strike choppers of the Royal Protection Squad taken out of the sky in a quick rescue attempt gone bad.

I stayed up all night to make the Intel doc’s we used for this simulation. 8 Photo’s with detailed comments so people could plan the map, about the only aid that we got lol. I even saved a last photo for an ‘in mission update’ showing the primary hostage, complete with bomb.

The [SAS] Element was to enter the fortress sized building, overcome the enemy, locate the royal hostage, optionally an injured pilot (from the RPS rescue attempt). And extract. I’d clear the roof area and get the tech squad to destroy the SAM sites on the roofs so we can get a Helicopter extraction. Then redeploy, go dynamic and frag every hostile on the map (reloaded to a tango hunt).

So, what went wrong?

Before the Live Op started, every one was supposed to be briefed, the last Intel was posted a day or two before the deadline.

There should’ve been a 1st, 2nd, and 3rd in command ready before the mission took place and a special Dynamic aslt plan prepared (the Immediate Action Plan) in place the Live Op had to launch early (Shots fired, hostage in danger, GO GO GO!).

It took forever for them to read the Intel -> but they did very good with the 15min time limit to plan the op.

Several people mis-installed the map because I didn’t have time to make a Click Team installer for it, just a batch file to install the files to the default paths for those who had it. Rest had to do it manually. Map was like 68MB, zipped down to 17.7MB.

During this time I was arguing with my mom, she used the phone and it caused my (aDSL/Ethernet) network connection to drop (A little problem we have here). So I had to storm out and devliever AJ (my nephew). They were nice enough to wait for me… Unforutintly Pittman couldn’t hang around it took to long.

Every one f@#king died

Leaving a bunch of Old School [SAS] in Royal Protection Squad Uniforms to come out of my imagination and save the day.

I’ve worked hard for months (March-September) setting up this live op. I wanted it to be some thing special for the guys, a real good live op. But it was hell on wheels from where I sat.

To top it all off, my family has all but tried to sabotage the freaking live op most of the afternoon. When I’ve gone through the trouble of arranging FOUR MONTHS in advance to have ONE DAY to spend on the computer. Gone through the hoopla of getting 7 people organised into for a single advent, planned down to the polish on the boots.

I freaking expect to be there with the time I scheduled to be rightfully mine to try & use!

Only GOD has a right to control my life without my permission.

The day before, when we scheduled to have me cart my nephew (my sisters bird) over there. I specified BEFORE 2 or in the Evening after the live op. We had every thing arranged like clock work the day before,, perfect I would be able to do what they wanted + get to hold the Live Op.

What happens? She’s not ready of bed by 3pm. My mother is going ape because she wants the loud mouth bird out of hear so she can work (his bird cage was in the way). So I’ve got to hold up the dang live op. It could have been easily done after the live op, simple. But no, they can’t wait for some thing planned months before there plans were even on the to do list.

All because two people can’t follow a schedule. They can’t do what they’ve agreed, they can’t deal with “Your late, then you wait”, well frag’em. Hell, I can’t even have a conversation with some one without my family interfering.

//— Start Rant —//
Not fit for human consumption
//— End Ran —//

Most of the time I ever do get to play games with my friends, it’s because my family is driving me too crazy to get stuff done. Or I’m not physically and mentally up to the task, so I send a few rounds with my friends then drop to get back to work. Most of the other times, it’s because some one asked me to Join them for a few games. I’m thankful for it.

I’ve had enough, if my family won’t respect me as I respect them. Then they can suck off before I show them the behavior I prefer to. They want to be bastards, then I should be a Monster. An Iron Fist. But I’m not that kind of person…. Unlike the rest of my family (IMHO), I think controlling your self before you allow yourself to hurt some one you care for is a thing that we should try.. I don’t like to hurt people, it’s not who I am. I like to be ‘me’, I like to be free. But not to the extent that I rip up other people.

I think if I ever get married, I would have more to apologize to my wife for then be thankful for of what place my experiences in Family life have had an effect on me. After nearly 20 years of being around people, they rub off on you…. Even things you try to avoid. Needless to say, much of whats gone on in my Family…. Is not what I want a future generation to ever know what it’s like.

The result? Some times I’m like a monster… Like I’ve seen them, at least in the same spirit of. The difference? I don’t want to be… I see it for what it is, wrong. I don’t like to be ‘mean’, it’s just not who I am on the inside. But it’s the rage they bring out in me. The rage I’ve learned from being around my family…

*sigh*.

No matter what I do, they always hurt me…. but I don’t want to hurt them back, even if I feel I should at times. And even thinking that way for a few minutes (to inflict on them what they inflict on me) is some thing I’m sorrowful about when I calm down.

One of the reasons why I work to try and serve the [SAS] and it’s Membership, is because it’s not like my family. It’s a good place, one where I would be honored to see my Children become involved in it; if I ever live to have any.

Of my travel through live, the best things to happen to me…

Finding GOD

My time with the SAS

Learning to read

And learning every thing I can about the things that interest me.

The miserable part? My family has had very little positive involvement or influence in any of it, other then learning to read… =S While other people have…

Dewookification

As much trouble as an hour of shaving is… It’s nice to finally be rid of that beard. Even if it took having to work Saturday for me to actually do it haha.

One of these days I’d love to get a straight razor (basically the old fashion kind)… Might cost a little (lot) more then the common safety razors used these days. But I think having to care for the blade would be cheaper and more effective then buying replacement cartridges every now and then (yes I am a cheap bastard).

The minor of issue of having to learn to use it would also be no problem (hopefully). The cost is the problem =/

Hmm, hopefully I’ll get at least 15 min before work to catch up on my reading for the day. I left off some where around Page 19’ish a couple months back and never found the time to continue.

*Sighs*, wouldn’t it be nice to have a nice long vacation with lots of reading time… hehe.

Getting Old

Dang it, I put my head down for 5 minutes to rest…. And next thing I know it’s almost 0230.

I had kind’ve hoped to shave before work this Saturday but I’m not sure if I’m going to get to now lol.

*Sighs* At least this weekend I can get a little rest..

  1. Work
  2. Dealing with a little [SAS] Matter
  3. Training
  4. PC-BSDv1.4RC and making a new XMMS PBI, also Blackbox PBI while I’m at it.
  5. catching up with AIM/E.t.c. -#&62; I havn’t been on any thing but XFire much this past week or two. I’ve been to busy working.
  6. Maybe make a Vim PBI if there isn’t any working one.
  7. Possibly try to get a hold of Heim and see if he can be of help information wise on point #2.

Not to mention I have til Tuesday to finish reading the library books. And I need to finish work on a program on a web site. Debugging Typo’s in PHP != my idea of fun.

I dunno why, but these past few weeks I’ve been having the strangest dreams =/

Extreme Sex and Perl programming…. Very strange combination for dreams lol.

What makes it all the more funky is Perl, is not a language I do much in. For the most part Ruby, C, and BourneShell make up most of the stuff I do. When I use Perl, it’s usually because I don’t know AWK and I’m to lazy to use any more |pipes in my command line.

I think odds are, if I had stuck with Perl when I had started learning it. It would’ve been my favorite language.

Hussle Bussle

Damn it feels good to get my feet out of shoes… Even if it’s only an hour til I go back to work.

I’ve missed the chance to post 3 or 4 entries I wanted to do.. When I’m busy I usually skip my Live Journal for the day. My E-Mail and server time usually being the next ones on the list to go….

The day started with a 0930 roll out to get ready, home from work, chores done by 1700. That gives me maybe an hour to rest. Then I go back to another hour and a half of hell. Not a bad days labour for some one people bitch at that he doesn’t work, eh?

I’m anxious to see what if any response my post in SNCO’s has gotten. But I don’t have time to deal with the other messages if I do log in. I uploaded an HTML Export of the current draft of the SOP’s. I consider them *almost* ready for release, just a couple more things that I know we need to do. Clean up the section on Communication, I think for the sake of Getting It Done. I’d like to grab a couple of Members and have a group huddle to work on a few things.

What En4cer did for the V-Commands SOP which I adopted into this rewrite as necessary… Is good stuff but we need a RvS and S4 V-Com section that goes hand in hand with each other. And En4cer is sure as hell not current enough on SWAT4 to be able to do it so even if he was active enough…

So, Plan C:

Rip it down to an outline and rewrite the hole thing from scratch. Including writing both sections at the same time(ish) to more better synchronise them.

Also Appendix I needs to be reviewed and I want to change a few more things but I need time to do it.

I’ve taken to keeping an Operations.txt file on my Desktop and having Vim open it to show coloured indentation markers. In such a way I can use it as a Quick & Dirty outline / notes file. While retaining the power of my text editor and skipping learning a plugin to do basically the same thing but more completely =/.

*sigh*, between Family and Work, life is a nightmare…. There’s not a lot good left in my days when I’m not around [SAS]. To be honest, I think I’d do better in the Military… I think even a Private would have more take home pay then both of us combined :S. If it was enough to support my mother… I might even manage to have a chance at going after it. It would also be a chance to do some thing with my life… if my body could stand the Physical Training I might even enjoy it. Ones country can’t shit on you as much as your family for trying to be of help can they? lol.

For my age, I should be strong as an ox…. Rather then having nearly as many rattles as a FORD Tempo.

I always hoped to keep the Army and Navy open as possible options for my future. But I don’t know if the parts would stand up to it any more. I’ve been working in this business since I was 15, without pay or respect. I remember when I was a young teenager people said I had a mind older then my years….. Less then 10 years down the road I feel like I’m developing the body to match =/

…. Fuck.

Re upp’d the library books this morning before work. It’s nice to know I’m not the only one thats half asleep that time of morning hehe.

I’ve been concentrating on Maximum Security: A Hacker’s Guide to Protecting Your Internet Site and Network. A very good book, highly interesting. This is a THICK book, I’ve read only 200 pages or so and keep going. I figure if I keep going at my usual reading rate I can finish it in about a week of reading nights. I’m used to pulling 70-100 Pages a day when reading a novel, more if I just sit on my ass and read the day away.

I really want to dig deeper into the book on PHP/MySQL because I really don’t know shit about Databases, PHP… Is close enough to things I do know that I can generally pick things up fast. SQL, is a different story.

Emacs pinky

Beware of attractive Blondes in tight cloths…. lol

On a lighter note, I’ve had emacs on the brain lately. Which is some one strange as I’m Vi man with a strong liking for VIM.

Generally GNU Emacs is the emacsen by which I compare emacsen. I first learned the basics of using emacs day to day using XEmacs on a Windows machine. Nice editor although i’ve never cared much for the Meta key. Generally I found emacs key bindings to be the kind, that if you could remember what type of key sequence it was you could figure it out. Generally things are some what consistent, Control + D, deletes the next character (right of the point). While Meta + D deletes the next word. Basically as I remember it for regular commands. A Control+Key combo does a smaller action while a Meta+Same Key combo does a larger action. Like if Control+Key works on words, Meta+Key works on lines e.t.c. And classes of commands I think generally had a consistent prefix. Control+X+Control+F Open/Find files, Control+X+Control+S Save current file, Control+X+Control+C exit editor, e.t.c Most of the mutli-file Editor related commands I recall focused on a Control+X prefix arrangement, like Contorl+X+2 to open a second buffer, Control+X+O to switch to the other e.t.c

I’ve tried a number of emacsen but never found one I really like enough to use a lot. GNU Emacs I don’t’ care much for but respect it among emacsen. I find it to fat and slow to be effective. On my desktop it’s no problem to run it, theres a lot of RAM and a fast CPU. On my laptop theres a budget CPU and moderate RAM so it’s slow as nails to get it’s motor warmed up. Not being much of a GNU Emacs man, I usually keep a fairly out of the box installation.

I haven’t tried XEmacs on my laptop but I don’t expect it to be faster then GNU Emacs. I think I would prefer XEmacs though.

MicroEMACS 4.0 and variants I’ve used and enjoyed, you could say MicroEMACS is my favorite. I like MicroEMACS in that it is small yet extensible. With just enough features to be useful Some what like Vi but with perks. Most of my issues with the editor would be solved by learning more about emacs ways of doing things and the marco language. I remember poking around a Traditional C style code base as well.

The only emacsen I find my self using often when I do actually use one. Is mg, a Micro GNU Emacs like editor maintained by OpenBSD. It’s a pretty bare bone emacs but it gets the job done nicely. Since I’m to stuborn to install Vim on my file server (OpenBSD) and would _NEVER_ dream of installing GNU Emacs on it. I’ll usually use mg when I need to edit multiple files. Although I could probably use Window and multiple instances of nVi for the same purpose.

I’ve tried Jove but never cared for it. An intermediate between the GNU Emacs/XEmacs variants and MicroEMACS variants I’d say.

I generally have preferences but I do believe in knowing a lot of things when possible. While I don’t remember most of the commands I learned in XEmacs, and prefer the Vi style of doing things more to my taste. Especially to my wrists and fingers liking !! (Escape Meta Alt Control Shiftritis). I can use Emacs fine but generally prefer not to. I generally prefer a light and fast emacsen to most other editors if I can’t have a Vi based one.

scratch file

To save my the trouble of screwing with SCP/SMB to continue work tomorrow from another computer…

Heres a scratch file I’ve been toying with tonight. For the heck of it I thought I’d toy around with trying to break a $PATH like string apart into some thing a program or file could be looked up and then try to add a primitive file name completion to after tinkering awhile.

Todo tomorrow:

clean up comments, finish playing with the Abbrev class, toy with trying to match up a regex to an abbrev to a filename, worry about rest afterwards.

#!/usr/local/bin/ruby -w
# Build a hash table from a $PATH like string that we can use for calling
# commands.

require 'abbrev'
require 'pp'

PDEBUG=1 # Programmers DEBUG on

path = '/bin:/sbin:/usr/bin:/usr/sbin'

# Create a hash for $PATH
#
# Arguments:
# path => string containing a list of directories delimited by separator
# separator => Any delimiter suitable for String#each
#
# Return value:
# A hash where keys are directory names and values are handles to those
# directories.
def make_pathhash( path, separator=':' )

hash = Hash.new()

# Parse path for directories
path.each( separator ) do |dir|
dir.gsub!( /:/, '' )
# Creates a key from path containing a directory name
hash[dir] = dir #Dir.open( dir )
end

return( hash )

end

# Create a hash from the current directory to assist filename completion
#
# Arguments:
# directory => A directory to create the hash from
#
# Return value:
# An hash of filename => filenames from directory
#
def make_chdirhash( directory )

hash = Hash.new()

dirh = Dir.open( directory )
dirh.each do |file|
hash[file] = file
end

return( hash )

end

if PDEBUG
h = make_pathhash( path )
cd = make_chdirhash( '.' )
pp Abbrev::abbrev( cd.to_a.flatten ).sort
end

Not bad for an idiot just screwing around if you ask me.

Also to do tomorrow, finish that thing I was doing before dinner.

Idiot on deck

mm, one of my favorite things to do.. Organize crap ! lol.

On the agenda for the day:

  • Update, organise, resync, and probably rewrite my vimrc
  • Find note taking software, write it, or kiss VIM into doing it for me.
  • Solve the multi-machine but single user problem…. My data getting spread between several PC but still used by just little ol’me.
  • fix my laptops SSH configuration
  • *Some day* finish working on my browser reintegration… Craps spread between Konqueror, Firefox, Opera, and Netscape..
  • Try new file management idea
  • Figure out how to use Vim for mail composing and temp files for message backup

currently my file system looks like

tmp -> usually crap I don’t want cluttering space in ${HOME} or Desktop but won’t delete yet

Work -> Files I’m currently working on not related to [SAS], usually need to be moved to ${HOME}/Programming/Language/, documents, and images.

sasclan.org -> a directory structure of all things related to [SAS].

I’ll probably have a follow up post when I have more time to think on the file system issue.